Song Portrait: Blue Eyes (Plus a Lyric Video for it!!)

“Blue Eyes”, track #9 on my album, how did this song come about?

Well, there is that funky chord my music professor at the time gave me, and for homework he told me to write a song that involved it.

And there is that blue eyed guy I met at a wedding – I sang a song during it, he noticed me, and later he was dancing, and I noticed him. And then we got married.

But I’m skipping a few details here, just a few.

A psychic once told me that I would meet my next love interest at the end of a calendar year. He would be of average height and build, and he wore nice clothes (“grown up” clothes, was my interpretation!) to work. She said she just saw us dancing away, and that he had blue eyes.

When my friend invited me to her wedding in December, and I was dancing with a blue eyed guy during it, I didn’t think anything of it. I guess I couldn’t really tell if his eyes were blue because he was too shy to talk to me.

But a couple of months later when the same friend invited me back to her town to hang out, we met up with the blue eyed guy and it was then that I was able to get to know him. We had a lot of fun hanging out, and this time he was not too shy to talk to me. I learned that yes he is shy, but when he starts talking, particularly about a single thing that may peak his interest at the moment, he can keep talking!

I ended up in his car on the way to a comedy show, and talk about what peaked his interest at that moment, he did. He talked about how he had a cold and about his Comtrex (cold medicine)! And oh my god, he even SHOWED ME THE BOX!! And I thought wow, this is NOT the typical smooth talking guy 😀 And THIS is what drew me, how funny is that? This is when I knew there was something about him. It was that he seemed to truly care about me as a breathing human being, not because I sang nice or he liked the way I looked. And ultimately, I felt safe.

And the next day after we’d all crashed at my friend’s house, after the sun came up – that’s when I noticed his eyes were very blue. And I thought, oh my god, and I kind of knew.

We started a long distance relationship because I was in New York, and he was in North Carolina. I was in school at the time for Studio Composition. My professor David Gluck, during my private lesson, was fiddling around on the piano and played a really funky chord. We both stopped and thought, that’s a really cool chord. So his eyes lit up and he said that my assignment would be to write a song based on that chord.

As I was sitting in my room by my keyboard, trying to come up with a song, I started thinking of the blue eyed guy I was seeing once a month or so. And I started to get kind of scared. One of those fears that comes up when you know you may be starting something that will give you a glimpse into what a large part of your life may look like. One of those fears that comes up because you know you may be on the path that your heart may really get involved in. And when your heart gets involved, then that’s being vulnerable. And being vulnerable means you could get really hurt. And possibly getting hurt is icky, so sometimes it’s easier to run away before you can.

So I started to get scared and started thinking of all the what if scenarios, until my mind just kept going in circles and I made myself a little crazy. So I did what was best for me during times like these – I sat at my piano and started singing. And the melody and chords came out. And I started thinking that feeling, FEELING, is so much better that tucking your heart away out of fear, letting it collect dust. Being scared, and feeling tearful, living in a world of color is so much better than living in a gray world. Even if it’s putting yourself out there. And I realized that if I was going to put myself out there, then he was the right one to do it with. Because there was just something in his blue eyes that told me it was alright.

And the song was born 🙂

And finally I recorded a Lyric video for it, but to make it more interesting, I decided to record just the vocals live, so it would be different from the recording. The blue eyed guy helped me make it. And fyi, he does wear grown up clothes to work, (while my work style is still bohemian, though I’m technically a grown up now, and have been for a while :)). And if you go back into my journal entry from way back then, you’ll see a part of the Comtrex box taped into it. He might have found it odd back then, when I asked if I could have the box, or at least just a piece of it, but I think he gets it now 😉 And hey, it’s a special box with magical powers, it’s what drew me to mr blue eyes, otherwise known as Joseph 😉

So here it is, and I hope you like it <3 And share and like it if you do, after all, that’s the only way to get art out there into the world these days. Thanks for taking time out of your busy day for me, I appreciate it more than you know <3

Click here to download “Blue Eyes” mp3

Blue Eyes

At times when I’m sitting by myself like now
I start to feel a little scared, a little teary-eyed, unsure
My mind starts to run in circles and I start to wonder why
Why so suddenly my fears my tears my dear, what is the reason?

But then I find I have to question a contemplating mind
What would a world be without some fears, some tears, and my dear
A dusty heart trying to keep beating in a gray world, it’d be
All of this going on inside me’s got me going kinda crazy

Chorus:
But there’s something in your blues eyes, something in your blue eyes
I couldn’t run away if I tried, somehow I know that it’s alright
Cuz there’s something in your blue eyes, in your blue eyes

So when I’m sitting here by myself like now
And I start to feel a little scared, a little teary-eyed, unsure
I know it in my heart I feel this all because I care
Now in this world with no reason can you stop a heart from feeling?

Chorus

Song Portrait: And One Day You’ll Know (published in Wild Sister magazine issue #18!)

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Every morning i like to start my day with a cup of tea, my journal of course, and some kind of spiritual or thought provoking reading. These days however, since the year has been fast approaching an end and 2013 is looming so very near, i’ve also been filling out a 2013 workbook (created by the wonderful Leonie Dawson), one that i discovered last year. an amazing yearly workbook that helps you sum up the closing year, and make goals and intentions for the coming year. it makes your dreams come true and i can’t recommend it enough!! (click here if you are interested in knowing more :))

I also recently discovered an electronic magazine called “Wild Sister”, created by the lovely Jen Saunders. i read one issue, fell in love with it, and then subscribed so i could read all the issues from past and the future ones! that’s how much it sang to me, and so you can imagine how ECSTATIC i was when my submission to write an article for it was accepted!! So, my blog for today will mainly consist of that very article. i wrote it to revolve around my song “And One Day You’ll Know”, written about my nephews. i poured my heart into that song, as well as the article, as well as everything i put out into the world! i hope you enjoy it <3 i would also love to offer you the “And One Day You’ll Know” Mp3 as a free download for you as a gift 😀

“A Musical Perspective on Unity”

(written by Kiyomi)

I’d always been a scared loner of sorts, when I was a young child. It was hard for me to break out of my shell and open up to people, though I craved the companionship. I did know from day one though, that I was extremely drawn to music. Perhaps because it kept me company. Perhaps because I realized that when I was listening to or delivering the music, I was able to feel a connection to people and beyond, a certain sense of unity even through my painfully timid exterior. And being a part of something bigger than myself was something I longed for. “Music is the universal language of mankind”, said American Poet Henry Wadsworth Longfellow in the 1800s. Such truth. My name is Kiyomi and i’m a musician who has through music, lived that truth. Music has the magical ability to really impact people to the core. How many times have you listened to a song and found yourself crying, or all of sudden not feeling lonely anymore? How many times has music caused you to jump up and dance and have your spirit soar?

So many countless numbers of emotions surface with music. I know that I personally find it to be therapeutic, especially when I am sad. I’ve gotten through some rough times through listening to beautifully sad music. Maybe it’s been healing because I know that at least the person who wrote the song has also experienced the emotion that I’ve gone through. I also know that I’ve performed for roomfuls of strangers before, to find people with tears in their eyes. I’ve also been on the opposite end as listener in a concert, and have found tears in my eyes. Something in the melody or words or deliverance of the song can strike a chord in you. And afterwards, random strangers can feel connected, united somehow, even be taken to an other-worldly place. And we can recognize that we are all humans, and the same. Last year I was able to finally complete something I’ve dreamed of all my life. My album entitled “Child In Me”. What’s drawn me to complete my album has always been an urgent need in me to connect people through music. Although the album tells the stories of my personal life and our specific experiences may differ, we feel the same emotions.

My goal with music has always been to reach a place in people, a place that we all share. My song called “And One Day You’ll Know”, I wrote for my nephews when I was going through a particularly difficult time in my life. I was not only going through a difficult breakup, but I was also letting go of everything that had been familiar to me my whole life up until then. A massive, painful, and necessary cleansing of the old that no longer served me, to put it another way. In the midst of all of this, my older sister gave birth to twin boys. I was out with some friends when I heard that they had been born. I rushed to the hospital and the second I held them I fell completely in love with them. And I finally felt a moment of peace. They were like angels who appeared in my life when I needed them most. And with the help of these two little human beings, I was able to start healing.

“And One Day You’ll Know”

Did you know I was crying, when you came into this world/ I was crying, when I first held you in my arms/ And one day you’ll know, that life can be dark sometimes/ So dark you just don’t know where to turn/ Did you know, when tears would fall/ I’d have to run over to see you/ And one day you’ll know, that only you could make me smile/ Through my tears, I did in fact smile/ ooh my darling ooh my sunshine/ Now it’s come to where i can feel the world once again/ All I needed was time and someone like you/ And one day you’ll know someone who’ll make you smile inside/ And my dear, I know you’ll always make me smile

We all go through periods of darkness, no matter what the cause of it may be. And through it if you pay attention, there are things that you can find, or that are handed to you that will urge you on, comfort you, keep hope alive in you. For me, it was my nephews. And I was able to focus on these lights in my life, and find a reason to smile, a reason to hope and be happy. And with the passage of time you will find peace again, and find that it was necessary to go through the painful process of letting go, in order to grow into someone stronger and better. And you just might find that at the end of the process you were left a gift. My nephews and this song were my gifts.

Perhaps you have your own version of this story. I wanted to share with you my song, and hope you can connect to it in some way. I also wanted to end with a quote, one that resonates with me so much that I included it in my cd cover. “Music is the space between the notes”, by Claude Debussy. A song is literally made up of words and notes, but it’s effect is way beyond that. If you listen with not only your ears but your heart, you can take away from it so much more than just words and notes. <3 <3 <3 always if you are interested in the full magazine, or want more information, click the pic below!

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