It’s My 2 Year Anniversary AND The Birthday of My NEW Website, la la la!! :D

So, two wondrous events take place in my life today, and the day is 11-29-2014! In case you don’t know, 11’s are one of my favorite numbers! (The month is an 11, the day is 2+9=11, and the overall day is an 11 (11+29+2014=2054, 2+5+4=11)) Hehe, ok I’m done with the nerd number talk!

The first cool thing is that Joseph has been working really hard to redesign my website, and we are launching it today!! The artwork was done by Joseph with a little help from my sister Kei (and me buzzing around in the background with my input, maybe a little too much!). I just love the light, bright feel of it! And it features beautiful flowers, butterflies, and nature, all pretties that I love! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!

I also realize that one of my purposes in life is to create, and keep creating. Well, I’ve always known that but I didn’t specifically know how. I hope that the redesign conveys this a little better. I think that my music and my writing helps the listeners and readers to find the magic in life. At least I hope they do! I find that for me, creating always ends up in me realizing a new lesson or having a new insight on something. And I rarely have that in mind when I start. But somehow when I focus my whole being into whatever I’m creating, I end up seeing the magic of it all in the end – the reason why I had this experience, or why I felt called to write that specific song. It’s pretty amazing. So hopefully I can convey this somehow through my work, and show how there’s magic in everyone’s life if you really look.

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(Photo: Islandia Lane)

It is also Joseph and I’s two year marriage anniversary! :) I was scared to get married because I didn’t know what exactly that meant and how it would change things. I also had a sometimes difficult childhood that contributed to my fears. Maybe I’ll write about that one day. But with marriage, I guess it’s what you make of it! You just go with the flow and do your best. I guess nobody really knows how to be married, you just do it and you find out ;) And of course everyone will have a different experience anyway.

And now 2 years later, I can say it was the best decision for me. I’ve been blessed with a guy who loves me no matter what, and who makes me feel safe and secure, feelings I have always craved but never was fortunate to have. I realize how this is the type of marriage that’s right for me, being someone with such big dreams. It’s been so essential for my growth as a musician and dreamer. And because of the security and love in my relationship, I have the luxury of having plenty of me left for my dreams.

In honor of our marriage in 2012, I wrote a song called “Wedding Song”. I also recorded a video of it, so I’d like to end with it. I hope you like it, and my new website, too! <3

“Wedding Song”

Every time there was a star in the sky, the little girl would pray
“Bring me my one true love, bring him to me”
And through the years when she was brave enough,
she’d show her heart for a few to see
But each time her heart would say, “he’s not the one for me”
The first time he saw her, she was singing a song happily
And later he was dancing, and was shy as can be
And through his awkward conversation, she recognized his soul somehow
And this is when her heart said that he might be the one for me

CHORUS:

All we can be, is who we are, in our hearts
And i thank you for singing my song, when i don’t remember how it goes
For loving me, for who i am
And through the years there was laughter, and other times there were tears
But through it all still together, still hand in hand
And he becomes the man she asked for, more and more everyday
So her heart asked her angel, “Will he be the one for me?”

CHORUS:

All we can be, is who we are, in our hearts
And i thank you for singing my song, when i don’t remember how it goes
For loving me, for who i am

Sparkles, Treasures, and “A Walk on the Beach” in Cape Cod <3

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ever since i read a couple of inspiring books by Joan Anderson, i’d been craving sparkly calming blue waters, salty refreshing sea air, briny oysters, lobster rolls, and most important, the feeling of getting away so i could see the world with fresh eyes again. Joan went on a solo internal journey to Cape Cod, and during this time she met the most amazing older lady named Joan Erikson, in “A Walk on the Beach”. i learned so much from Joan Erikson through the book, the biggest lesson for me being the importance of always taking action in life. and ever since, my heart had felt this longing to go back to the cape.

so when i got the itch to get away again, which was really an itch to feel renewed again, i presented the Cape Cod idea to Joseph and he was on board! he had read the book too after all, for i have this habit of shoving books in his face for him to read, maybe more often then he’d like ;) and there’s something about traveling that lets you see the world in childlike wonder and amazement, where everything is so beautiful and almost new again, especially if your day to day life has turned mundane.

so, i had my toes painted a candy raspberry pink, and off we went in my beloved little (non gas-guzzling!) red prius, towards a cute little b&b near the ocean!

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and it was magical! we were able to spend much time by the water. we visited and strolled through many of the towns, though it was too cold to go in the ocean. but i’m not really a lounging in the sun by the water type of person anyway :) just being by the water makes me happy! and literally after each day was over, i soaked in a long hot bath full of epsom salt and essential oils, it was heaven! i think i took 4 baths in a row, my idea of heaven!

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and of COURSE i had to have seafood, like, all the time there, i am seafood crazy! the lobster rolls were amazing, the sweet lobster meat so fresh and plentiful, the oysters were perfectly cold and briny, and perfection with some crisp white buttery chardonnay, and i had quite a few bowls of heavenly clam chowder (no skimping on the clams here!), all over the cape :)

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we had plenty of wine of course, with the lovely food, and also visited Cape Cod Beer, a brewery with amazing beer! i think we had a little too much fun there, but really, is there such a thing as too much fun??

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one of my favorite things about traveling is just kind of wandering around and finding little treasures that you may not find in a guidebook. and of course i did find some things that made me squeal in delight! like a little kid! (this is what traveling does to you, i tell you!) like a pretty art piece that i loved made out of shells. and a fountain surrounded by red flowers. and a signpost made out of shells too. i just love finding treasures that make life pretty!

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and one of my favorite finds, we were driving around at one point, and a bright pink house caught my eye. so we made a Uturn so i could check it out, and it turned out to be a used book shop! really??!! a PINK house FULL to the brim, literally every nook and cranny, with books? what?? like, heaven for me!! i think i was MEANT to find this place!! i had an enchanting time there browsing, smelling the old paper and bindings, and savoring the feeling of being surrounded by millions of beautiful words by so many authors who’ve spilled their dreams, life stories, and lessons into these books.

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so, we had a marvelous time there. and it made me realize again how beautiful life is. and i was proud of myself that i took action to go where i wanted. and i find that taking action not only brings me to places i want to go physically, but towards my dreams as well. they all go hand in hand, really, and i find that the more i do, the closer i get to where i want to be, and the better i become as a person. life is like a grab bag full of magical gifts, isn’t it? if we accept these gifts, there’s so much we can do and be, how cool is that?

“The important thing is to DO something, even if it’s as simple as making a pile of pebbles. For it is always the doing that leads to the becoming, and before you know it you’re on to the next stage of life.” – Joan Erikson