i was about to turn the lights out and crawl into bed, but realized that i, am not tired. and there’s just no sense in trying to fall asleep when you are me because i can’t even fall asleep when i’m sleepy! i actually am incredibly jealous of all who are able to sleep when you want to… you just don’t know how easy you have it!! well at least in the sleeping department.
i am sitting at my desk, looking at half a dozen beautiful roses in front of me, their scent lures me to remain just where i am. they are part of what is keeping me up tonight, i just want to sit here and smell them. they smell like diamonds and velvet, if diamonds and velvet had a smell to them , and fruit. and how i love fruit! …and of course diamonds and velvet 😉 but along with them being beautiful and them smelling beautiful, they make me happy, yes they do!
i’m also looking at my doodle i have displayed on my desk at all times these days, it is of a music staff with notes on it. except instead of the noteheads, i have drawn in flowers, butterflies, hearts, gems… i drew it when i was about to start writing the background vocals to my final songs in the album. i envisioned beautiful music dancing off a music staff, and was able to write the vocals pretty quickly. and now i am sitting here envisioning the editing and mixing work happening as i sit here… beautiful music dancing off a music staff… after all, this is the most i can offer at the moment! i guess looking at the doodle makes me feel like i am contributing somehow.
speaking of fragrances, i’ve always wished i could make a perfume for myself, my signature scent. if i could only capture the smell of japanese pears, currants, and fresh snow in a bottle. and a flower, i haven’t decided on which yet, although violets has been strong in my imagination. or maybe, roses 🙂
i think i am finally sleepy… sweet dreams