Groggy, with a gray cloud encompassing my head, is what i felt when i opened my eyes today. It was one of those mornings that could ruin an entire day easily, where the goal would be to just get through it, go to sleep, and hopefully wake up to something better. I’m sure part of it had to do with my loss of my beloved FREEDOM, after my delightful 2 week holiday-relaxing-plenty-of-free-time vacation, and i also am a creative spirit, and we creatures like our boundaries to dissipate sometimes so we can fly anywhere we please at anytime we want 😉
i, however, did not want to squander away a whole, potentially glorious day, so i pulled out my list of “Things To Do When Everything Sucks”!!
- take a bath
- go outside on a walk
- drink a raw juice
- yoga or work out
- hang with boys (my nephews!!)
- write in journal
i contemplated what moves i’d try as i sipped my morning herbal tea, checked my emails, and read the blogs i follow. well, taking a bath was out, because that would entail scrubbing the tub, which was definitely NOT something i was in the mood to do. go outside for a walk…well it is the dead of winter so that didn’t feel very inspiring either. drink a raw juice – i had just made and drank a huge batch yesterday, so was raw juiced out. yoga or work out – i literally yoga-ed last night before bed (quite a vigorous DVD, actually, and also a great one by Sadie Nardini), and i didn’t feel like dragging my ass to the gym. meditate, yes i could do that. hang with the boys – well, they are at school now, so of course, no. and finally, write in my journal – i could do that.
SO, the first thing i did was pull out my journal. and of course everything that first came out were complaints, blah blah blah, about how i feel depressed and blue. but of course at the end of it, i knew that this is a very helpful process in trying to turn things around for the brighter. writing it all out helps you to literally empty it all out of you onto pages through your pen, and it somehow ends up making you feel better. and in the process, you come to realizations, or insights to helping you out with whatever you need at the moment. so on a “crappy day journal entry”, it usually starts out complainy and whiny, but by the end it ends up being more hopeful.
by now i felt a little better, so decided to try meditating for 10 mins. i chose an uplifting one, closed my eyes, and was soon in another zone that left a smile on my face. while journaling for me, releases energies and sometimes gets all the junk out while bringing me some calm – kind of like talking to a really good friend, meditating often times helps me with inspirations to do things, and gets me to listen & receive somehow. well during today’s, i was particularly inspired to write this blog, and found myself jotting stuff down in my notebook, points i wanted to cover 🙂
and as for the rest of my list i “couldn’t” do today, i decided to think outside of the box. well, no bath? long hot shower! and scrub myself with my new moisturizing honeysuckle bath gel! (i usually favor fruity, or sweet, warm scents like chocolate or ginger, but i thought i’d try something new!) And then slather myself with my current favorite – Josie Maran body butter in the apricot vanilla scent, which is so light and creamy it’s like covering yourself in whipped cream!! (i have an absolute obsession with body creams if you haven’t noticed, and already have my eye on a couple more i want to try after this runs out ;))
after my shower, i was starving so i nourished my body with a bean & kale minestra i made yesterday, a recipe i got from a Moosewood cookbook. Moosewood is an amazing vegetarian restaurant Joseph and i ate at while we were vacationing at the Fingerlakes in NY. highly recommended. this dish is one of our favorites and a staple meal now in our house. the broth is thickened with pureed beans to make it thicker and heartier, and is flavored with sage and is oh so good!
and as for the exercise? i decided to get my hand weights and do sets of 6 different arm workouts, then my crunches, then my butt lifts. yes, i said butt lifts. there’s nothing like working out to immediately make you feel better 🙂
i then lit my green Aloha Bay tapers (made with palm wax which dissolves instead of dripping!) which i LOVE, sprayed my entire work space with an essential oil blend spray i made, consisting of: water, chamomile oil and lavender oil for calm, clary sage oil for clarifying, and lime oil for brightening. and now i’m sitting in this lovely cloud of magical scents, typing away 🙂
blogging always lifts my mood no matter what, so now i’m truly and officially in a good mood, and can more easily notice the things that make me happy right now, like all the continual traffic i’m getting on my website (thank you soooo much!!!), and the ornament my cutie pie nephews made for me for christmas!! (i couldn’t visit the boys, but i could look at something they gave me – think outside of the box, wink wink, nudge nudge) It’s a heart, which i thought was perfect since my theme for this year is LOVE, and to make it more sweet, it says “I Love you Kiki!” on it, awww, how special is that??
am i a lucky girl (lady??), or what? and a happy one too, thank you very much!